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Rethinking
Saturday mornings, "Ridna Shkola" and Shevchenko
by:
Paulette MacQuarrie
I'm
a born again Ukrainian and Taras Shevchenko came into my life when I was
already an adult, studying Ukrainian history and language in university.
It
would be an extreme understatement to simply say that I was amazed and
inspired reading about this remarkable man who loved his native Ukraine
and her people so much that he was willing to risk his own life and liberty,
his health and his personal happiness.
The
first words that came across intrigued me with their wisdom and insight,
stated so simply, yet so eloquently.
"Uchtetsia
braty moyi, dumaite, chytaite…"
Educate
yourselves, he said, think about what you've studied and read some more
-
what
better advise to an impoverished and enslaved people?
Dumaite.
Lets think for a minute about the man who wrote those words. This
gentle soul, with the insight of the divine was born into captivity as
a serf, and managed to get his freedom, to study, to write and to paint.
Yet he lived his life in a manner designated to lose that hard won freedom.
And why? Because he had a message for the enslaved people whose spirit
had been almost completely crushed by centuries of foreign oppression.
I say almost crushed. Shevchenko saw the glimmer of life, that innate
intelligence that could not be entirely repressed. And so he did
what he had to do, wrote what he had to write, even though there were times
he had to hide in his prison issue boots.
"I
chuzhoho nauchaites", svoho ne tsuraites’…"
Study,
and read, yes and study other cultures, too. Learn the ways of the
world, but never forget your roots.
I
think he would be particularly delighted to see the youngsters here, reciting
his words, and their parents silently reciting along with them.
I
think he would be very gratified to see our wonderful "Ridna Shkola" (School
of Ukrainian Studies) here in Vancouver, where adults and children alike
can study and enjoy their Ukrainian heritage, half a world away - "mizh
chuzhymy."
But
human nature is a funny thing. I've heard grumbling from some who
have envied their friends who spent Saturdays playing hockey or watching
TV, while they were at Ridna Shkola, memorizing Shevchenko’s poetry.
If
that's you, then I have a message for you. And I hope the young people
in the audience will take note. Because I was once as young as you,
and some day you will be as old as I, with children of your own.
And I hope my message will save you and them - a future regret.
You
see, I was one of those much envied kids. I didn't have to go to
Ridna Shkola- didn't even know such a thing existed. Because in those
days, things were different. Growing up in on a farm in Saskatchewan,
both my parents saw friends and family go to the city looking for a better
life and being denied a job because they had a Ukrainian accent or Ukrainian
name. And they didn't want that for themselves, or their kids.
They took care of the basics - they took us kids to a Ukrainian church
and stuffed pyorrhea and halibuts down us. But they didn't want us
to be easily identified as Ukrainian, so we didn't get the culture, or
the language. They did not send us to Ridna Shkola, and after my
Baba left our house when I was 5, I stopped speaking Ukrainian and begun
speaking English.
So,
having no idea all that someone else might be envying me, I spent my childhood
Saturdays playing ball or ice skating or watching cartoons. I honestly
can't remember.
And
that's the point. I have no meaningful memories of my childhood Saturdays,
except that they were more or less carefree.
But
those of you who went to Ridna Shkola - how I envy you! You have
memories of your childhood Saturdays to share with your children - even
if its only to justify why they have to go!
Those
of you who graduated from Ridna Shkola are well versed in Ukrainian culture,
in all respects. How I envy you that. You grew up with it,
living it, whereas I learned about it from university textbooks.
Needless to say, it wasn't Kozak cartoons I watched on Saturdays, and I
didn't learn how to make pysanky until I was grown up.
Your
beautiful command of the Ukrainian language, which I am still struggling
with, and probably always will, is a part of you as natural as breathing.
I envy you that.
"Bo
khto matir zabuvaie toho Boh kareie."
Perhaps
that feeling of envy and of personal loss is my punishment - for when I
discovered the Ukrainian community and began to realize all that I had
missed out on. I certainly expressed my resentment to them for depriving
me. Oh, I was bitter, and I sure let them know. Because it
began to dawn on me why as a child there had been times I felt uncertain,
unsure of myself, when some bully would call me a "bohunk" or laugh at
the food we ate or the way we did certain things. You see, I didn't
have certain things. You see, I didn't have Shevchenko’s words to
fall back on. I didn't know that I came from a culture every bit
as good. Of course, my parents made the best choice they knew at
the time. I knew that. They just wanted the best for me, just
like all parents. And today, my whole family is born again Ukrainian,
even the non Ukrainian in-laws are making pyrohy and pysanky, and sending
their kids to Ukrainian school and dance classes.
So
yes, I've reclaimed my heritage, and I'm so grateful I had the opportunity
to do that. But there will always be a part missing, that part of
my childhood when I didn't quite know who I was, or where I belonged.
Don't
do that to your kids. Please. For your sake, and for theirs.
Don't let them envy the kids who get to goof off on Saturdays, and for
heaven's sake don't envy them yourself. Vague memories of childhood
Saturdays are not nearly comprehensive enough for missing out on Ridna
Shkola. Believe me, you'll be an adult living with regret much longer
than you'll be a child living without hockey or football or cartoons.
So to the young people. I say - treasure your Saturdays at Ridna
Shkola, not just so that will have fond memories the rest of your life,
but to save yourself or your children an agonizing journey of self discovery
later in life. And make no mistake, even if it doesn't matter to
you, chances are very good it will matter to your children. Roots
like ours can never die, but they must be nourished and nurtured to reach
their fullest potential.
Shevchenko
knew what he was talking about.
So
let's remember Shevchenko’s words, and do his bidding. Not just the
rest of the day today, but tomorrow, and next week and next month.
Until next March.
When
we come together once again to reflect on this message - and the words
that remind us that today we have the freedom he sacrificed his life for,
advantages he could have hardly imagined, and that irrepressible spirit
that allows us to follow him down the path of greatness that he saw for
his land his people.
"Uchitesia,
braty moyi, dumayte, chytayte … I chuzhoho nauchaytes", svoho ne
tsuraytes" … Bo khto matir zabuvaye toho Boh karaye."
The text above is an edited version of
a speech given at the Shevchenko anniversary celebration
in Vancouver on March 9, 1998.

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